Car Guys Are Like Women…

I have been in the weeds so to speak with my posts here on RJsCorner so I thought I would put out a car post today.  I want to move from the weeds of politics to the green pastures of vintage cars.

I know this post title is going to get a lot of attention from my more macho car guy friends. I suspect that they are saying “yeah if I drove around in a pink Cadillac!!” But what I am really talking about is how many car guys fall for the latest trends even if they are totally impractical. They are like women who insist on plucking down the big bucks on a pair of seven inch high heels.  These women know that there is nothing healthy or practical about those shoes but since they are told that anyone who is attuned to fashion “must” wear them.  Yeah, car guys are like women in that regard.

2017-11-09_11-24-38.pngNow, let’s get down in the dirty on this post. The car guy who insists that they have to have a car “down in the weeds” is not my kind of car guy.  Down in the weeds means the car sits about an inch off the ground, has enormously large tires and absurdly monster engine.  None of these things makes a car more beautiful or practical.

2017-11-09_11-23-48.pngDoing this stuff is kind of like putting a 300 hp engine on a skateboard as far as I am concerned.  I am a car guy in that I do love the styling of many of the cars I grew up with in the 1960s.  When Lynn Eikenberry who I admired from afar in my college years came back to campus with a 1967 Chevy Chevelle I fell in love with both her and her car.  But of course, she never knew that. Yeah, I love the looks of some of the cars of my youth but I fully realize that compared to those today those cars were rolling deathtraps.  My idea of a perfect vintage car is one that has a body from the 1960s and a chassis from today.

If I had my choice I would put an electric engine in a 1957 Chevy pickup. I know that is the opposite of what goes on today but since my view of the world is often quite different than others, that fact doesn’t bother me at all 🙂 Paying thousands of bucks to put a car in the weeds just doesn’t make any sense to me at all.

It’s Hard Looking Beyond Self Preservation Nowadays..

The political news just gets raunchier and raunchier now that we have a “liar-in-chief” in the Oval Office. The president used to be an image that we could give our children for their inspirations. Now we need to shield them from the current occupant’s disrespectful rantings and constant lies.  My tolerance for these intolerable defects continues to erode as each day passes.

I used to be a hog for news. I watched multiple sources on a daily basis. Now, the only thing I can seem to stomach is the PBS Newshour and since it is recorded and watched the next morning about half of it is watched in the fast-forward mode. I did see a recent segment where and a GOP consultant made the comment that Mr. Trump is not the problem when it comes to civility and such but only a reflection of our times. He insinuated that all of this hateful rhetoric and actions are now endemic in our society. It is the new norm! I totally reject that idea. Saner minds will once again rule this country.

But I do admit that when things get as dark as they are many of us go into the self-preservation mode which of course means primarily looking out for ourselves and things that personally affect us. That is not a mode to be in for an extended period of time but sometimes it is necessary to maintain our sanity. I know I personally don’t give much of a hoot on what happens in the rest of the world right now.  As long as I have my social security and Medicare I will be satiated for now.  If those are threatened, and they just might be in the months and years ahead, I will spring like a cornered cat to defend my way of life. Sadly, I am in the self-survival mode right now.  I can’t see anything good coming from the narcissist in the Oval Office so I am just praying that he doesn’t do too much permanent damage before saner minds control our world.

This is a sad state to be in my final years but that is as it is.  I can only hope and pray for brighter tomorrows….

 

 

Making Government Accountable

It was at least a little comforting to see how the limited elections worked out last week. You might call it a slight silver lining in the very dark cloud presently hanging over America.  We can only hope to see the same thing on a much larger scale a year from now.

But, as far as I am concerned both parties have a lot to be blamed for these times.  They have learned from each other that total obstruction pays dividends in the “next” election. It would go a long way toward solving many of our current problems if the people finally get disgusted with the current office holders and vote them out.  Is this current gridlock mode really the answer to making the government once again accountable to the people? Of course the answer is a big NO.

I think it’s time to make some wholesale changes to our electoral processes. Both parties seem to have lost their founding principles but still have their own way of trying to keep their base in line. Here is a quote about that:

By and large, the two parties have very different performance routines they employ to build and sustain their voting coalitions. The GOP will tell you that the Democrats are a bunch of godless socialists who want to quash all individual initiative. Democrats will assure you that the GOP is a party of oligarchic theocrats who want to give all your money to the rich and make you go to church….

Source: Learn American History to Make Government Accountable | National Review

We need to send an unequivocal message and the way to do that is to not give our vote to either party until they put their house in order. It’s time for more of us to vote for the independent candidate. Nothing will change until we give the current two parties a message that they cannot ignore.

Even voting independent in the short term has an almost immediate effect. If we just had a half dozen senators who were not beholden to either party they could drive an agenda for the common good since they would control who gets the majority vote.  Now if only there are enough forward looking voters out there to do their part.  I realize that my State of Indiana is VERY red so I don’t hold out much hope for an independent running here but I do plan on financially supporting independent candidates wherever I can find them next year.

Let’s not throw in the towel simply because times are difficult right now. Instead let’s work to change things. Yes, there will always be those narrow minded voters who are driven by fear and hate but we the majority can keep them on the sidelines if only we have the will.

A Little More Cheery…

I decided to let my creative juices flow a little more lately and attacked my blog header to make it a little more cheery. I know most of you guys probably don’t even notice the header but I don’t think you can avoid this one. 🙂  There is enough in the world today that is simply awful dreary. We need to let the sun shine more in our lives. This is a meager attempt to do a little of that.

The main themes for my blog are “Question Everything” and my “InSearchOfAmerica” project.  I am adding another theme to that list and it is about complaining.  It seems that everyone, me included, has a myriad of things to complain about in this world today.  Lord knows with the narcissist in the Oval Office our complaints in many areas are certainly justified. Additionally, for decades now the quality of life continues going down instead of up for many of us. We have a right to complain about that but what good does just complaining do?

2017-11-11_09-24-18.pngComplaining without doing something about it is just having a pity party or just plain whining.  The upper right side of the header has the same message just in a different way.  Complaining is not a conversation after all.  So if you insists on complaining then you also need to start doing something constructive about your complaints. Offer solutions instead of just whining. No one likes whiners.

Looking at this from a higher level, one of the worst things you can do with your life is to live it in negativity. Until you find something to be enthusiastic about, your life often lacks purpose. Maybe you need to turn off your TV and look around you for things to be thankful for. Just don’t dwell on the negative too frequently.

Of course I need to take my own advice in this area and I am trying to do just that.  I have a lot to be thankful for. But ignoring the problems around me is not the answer either.  Facing them head on with a personal action plan no matter how meager is much better than just whining about them.  That is one of my new mantras in life. I seem to have many of those don’t I?  I guess you could call this new resolve an early New Year’s resolution but since those are most often forgotten I don’t want to do that. I’ll just call it a new perspective… how about that?

About Atonement..

One of the current foundations of the Christianity is the atonement. Generally that is thought to be Jesus taking the wrath of God for us with his substitutional crucifixion in order to appease God wrath toward man’s sinfulness.  I, like many others I’m sure, thought that atonement was a foundational issue with Jesus and the early church.  In reality it was post-Constantine theologians who gave us the doctrine of original sin and the blood atonement, the belief that Jesus came to earth solely for the purpose of dying for our sins, was a doctrine not fully developed in the church until the tenth century.  It was almost upsetting to me to learn this fact since so many of my inherited beliefs hinged on it.

We all like to think that the things we are told to believe about Jesus  were actually established by him.  In reality the idea of atonement was not settled until centuries after his death. Yes, Jesus mentioned here and there about dying for us but I don’t now believe it was ever a central theme. Even the concept of man’s innate sinfulness is still a matter for disagreements.  Are we born bad and must be saved, as some assert, or are we born good, as others maintain, but have forgotten where we came from, where we are going, and to whom we belong? Was the death of Jesus on the cross necessary for the salvation of the world or was he here for other, or maybe additional. purposes?

Many think that if we disregard sacrificial atonement then we must throw Christianity out the window as Jesus’ death meant nothing.  To those the idea of universal salvation is pure heresy. But to others, like Philip Gulley it meant no such thing.  They believe that while it was unnecessary for God to come in the form of Jesus to kill himself, Jesus’ time on earth was to among other things to teach us how to live and how to love. While that purpose is very encompassing he also physically conquered death by his resurrection. That is no small thing!

Sacrificial atonement is something that I have always had trouble understanding. Why would God need to take on another form and kill himself to satisfy is own wrath?  Robin Meyers in his book entitled “The Underground Church” stated:

It is no coincidence that it took as long for the idea of the blood atonement to be fully formed as it took for Christians artists to begin to show us an image of the corpse of Jesus hanging on a cross.

No dead Jesus for a thousand years. This is not to say that the suffering of Jesus is unimportant; indeed it bears witness to the depth of his capacity to Love

It is not widely acknowledged in many Christian churches just how unresolved the issue of atonement is. It continues to be widely discussed even today.

Your Vote Counts, But…

I am an ultra-advocate to the rights and privileges of voting.  If you don’t vote then you should have no say in what your representatives do in Washington.  Sadly, we are one of the lowest participatory democracies in the world.  Less than half of those eligible to vote in any election usually choose to do so.  When that happens we allow a small minority to choose our elected officials.  That is certainly what happened in 2016.

An unlikely coalition of estranged fringe groups eerily chose our president. For the most part the uninformed masses coalesced into an unchallenged voting block. Will this continue going forward? Will the “Pitchforks at the Palace” be the norm in the future? I guess only time will tell. But I kinda think that eventually saner minds will prevail once again.

2017-11-05_10-12-50.pngBut let me get to the point of this post now. Those of us who spend hours studying the candidates to determine who we will vote for  seem to think that somehow our vote is more important than the guy who blindly voted for someone who simply says what he wants to hear. Does our informed vote count more than that guy’s?  Of course the answer is no.  Every vote counts the same no matter how wisely or ignorantly it was cast.  That is the foundation of a democracy.  But does it have to be?

If you get “F”s on your tests in your school you fail the grade and have to take it again.  At least in theory that is. Ha.  If you don’t pass your driver’s test you don’t get a license to drive. So, how come you have a right to vote no matter how miserably you would fail a basic citizenship test? Isn’t voting for someone to run of our country more important than that?

If I follow this logic to another extremely important area of life I could claim that you have to pass a parenting course before you can have children.  There are just too many kids brought into this world by people who have absolutely no idea of what it takes to raise a child.

Your vote counts, but……

Lost Dreams..

It is important to take stock in all the good things we have had. But it is also worthwhile to recognize the opportunities we might have missed. In the past I have told many stories about how, after very humble beginnings, I have had a pretty privileged life.  This post is about the things I might have missed. So, here is that story.

The bible says something about not worrying about tomorrow or the past, but just live in today. Those always seemed like wise words to me but being I question everything they also sometimes seem like stifling words. Maybe worrying about tomorrow is not a good thing but not dreaming of it is something else.

Me at the age of 18.jpgI must admit that while I claim to be a dreamer, much of my life wasn’t as fully engaged in that mode as I would have liked. I too often kinda let things just happen instead of chasing me dreams. That is a sad commentary for a 70+ year old to have to make but it is as it is.

I knew from a very young age that I loved to read books, especially the non-fiction type where I learned to admire others and make them heroes in my life.  I knew I loved to think and rethink stories. Even as a pre-teen I wrote many stories but they like  Simon & Garfunkel’s Sounds of Silence they were songs written but voices never heard, my stories had a readership of one.

I knew I was passionate about the written word but never really let it be part of my dreams. Instead I let others tell me what to pursue in life.  My dad wanted to be an engineer so I decided to be one for him.  I never allowed myself to dream of anything else or maybe I just didn’t have a clue.

My middle years were driven by my occupation. Engineering is not about dreaming but instead about equations, proofs and fact. Dreams had little to do with it.  I lived my middle years just concentrating on today. What was the job at hand? I simply didn’t allow myself to look for other possibilities. The draw of a constant paycheck  kept me in place. So, for the most part I had unfulfilled dreams.

Now as I look back on my life, I regret not dreaming enough and not especially not acting on the ones I had.  I look at my life and realize that it could have been quite different if I had allowed my dreams even a small level of realization. I know that the fault of this is totally my own. No one pushed those dreams from my head.

All this is not to say that I had an unhappy life. Except for my pre-college years I never wanted material things that I couldn’t have. I have a wife who I probably don’t deserve and some valuable friends along the way. It is just that my life could have been better if I had had the courage to dream a little more.

 

China And The US.. A Perfect Storm..

To get started, let’s look at how Wikipedia  defines “a perfect storm”:

A “perfect storm” is an expression that describes an event where a rare combination of circumstances will aggravate a situation drastically.

I think the idea of a perfect storm is where we likely are in world events today.  China is aching to take over as “the” world leader while at the same time the current US administration is shrinking into a protectionist mode and recklessly abandoning its responsibilities in that regard. We are headed for a perfect storm and much sooner than many might anticipate.

Let’s look at some of the circumstances that is making this change of leadership possible:

2017-10-23_11-07-47.pngIf you have had your head in the sand as far as China is concerned you need to look at it in the light of today.  They are spending way more than the US when it comes to infrastructure. Their hydroelectric projects alone dwarf anything that we are doing.  Their GDP growth makes our’s seem miniscule. In fact the coming year will see China’s GDP exceed ours and the trend is ever increasing after that. It is expected that China’s GDP will be double ours within four years.

China is pushing big time to be the world leader in electric cars, solar and wind power. They realize that is the future of our energy needs. Building the world’s largest hydroelectric dam was the beginning of this movement to a limitless clean energy source. Since things are moving at such a rapid pace in these technologies I fret to see the damage that the current federal administration will do in the 38 months they have left in office.  I just hope that America’s private enterprise at  least makes a meager attempt to keep up with China in this area.  If they don’t we could be in serious trouble in the coming decades and maybe centuries.

In summary, maybe our time as world leaders has appropriately come to an end.   Rome had their day, England had theirs, so maybe it is time for the mantel to pass. If China is to take over that role I hope the their leaders are up to the task. Obviously ours have not been lately.

The Bible As A History Book..

I think I have let it be known that I view the Bible as a history book of the early period of Christianity. As such maybe it needs to be updated from time to time? New chapters need to be written and old ones modified to more accurately reflect information found.

The Bible was put together about 400 years after the death of Jesus. It was primarily assembled under the oversight of a Roman Emperor who intended to use it as a guide for his kingdom. It contained several of the ancient documents found at the time but by no means all of them. Some of the ancient documents just didn’t seem to align with what the emperor wanted. There was and continues to be today questions about the authorship of many of the established documents. It is now generally accepted that many of the people given credit for the authorship of the various documents didn’t really write them but instead they were written by the people who were inspired by those early Christians. Anyone who cares to look at the bible with critical analysis techniques sees these inconsistencies.  There is nothing wrong with that as they, as with any human endeavour, are not perfect.

There are some who seem to believe that after the Bible was assembled God no longer had anything to say to us.  My Quaker friends totally reject this idea and so do I. God teaches me new things on a daily basis it seems. The Bible was only the beginning of that wisdom transfer.

Wouldn’t it have been interesting if every four hundred year a biblical council such as the one in fifth century were to have been convened to add additional documents and maybe correct some things in previous versions? I guess in a way that is what Roman Catholics say is the Pope’s job.  He keeps God’s word relevant for the times. I personally doubt that this can be accomplished via a single human being. even with a massive hierarchy.

The biggest change to the church came from the Protestant Reformation five hundred years ago.  Since that time we have gone from a handful of Christian organizations to literally tens of thousands.  Every time a church body has any serious conflict their answer it is to split into another version of Christianity and then claim they are the only ones who have it right. Another major problem I perceive with the  Protestant variety is that they tend to fixate on rules set down by Paul instead of the stories and lessons of Jesus.  Let’s just face it head on, the church Jesus founded morphed into something that even he would not recognize. But that is another post…

 

President Chump Going To China

I see where President Chump is making an official visit to China next week. He will never admit it but I know he is kinda intimidated by President Xi Jinping so he is taking a bunch of people with him to back him up and to have them tell Xi just what a great president the US now has.  I’m sure he will also let  him know that is he much smarter than Xi so don’t try to pull anything over on him.

I don’t know what the “official” purpose of the visit is but I’m pretty sure the de facto reason is to turn over the world leadership to China. President Chump knows he doesn’t have the desire to handle all the messes in the world today and he has no plans for Middle Eastern Chump Towers so why even bother with that part of the world. But he stands by ready to give Xi any of his wise advice he might need.

2017-10-23_11-06-45.pngPresident Xi is more than willing to take the world leader handoff. As far as he is concerned the US has had that title way too long so it’s time for China to take over now.  I also see that 2018 is  the year when China takes over as the biggest annual GDP so maybe the world leadership role is now an appropriate one.

I know President Chump really wants to make a deal with Xi. Since his advisors tell him that China is so good at making walls maybe he can get them to build one for us and they pay for it.  So many possibilities for this upcoming visit…

A Centrist Position??

Let’s get a political post in today without talking about the Oval Office occupant.  It was interesting to see the two Republican Senators who gave an impassioned speeches about these current times.  Their words reminded me of the McCarthy years in the 1950s.  I was just beginning to get my political legs then so couldn’t understand the obvious witch hunt that was going on by one Wisconsin Senator. But even more so, I couldn’t understand why so many of his party in congress didn’t speak up against that travesty.

Having to answer to your children and grandchildren why you didn’t stand for your principles in the face of such ugliness is a critical point in that fiasco and the one currently taking place. I have admitted here that while I am an avid social progressive I am also a fiscal conservative so I have never pledged my total allegiance to either political party. To me, there have always been good things in both organizations.  That is, until recently where the GOP is going off the rails to to speak with a very radical right agenda. It is pure spite to make it your goal to undo EVERYTHING your predecessor has done. Pure Hateful Spite…

Disliking the current Republican stands does not engender me more to the Democratic party, instead it caused me to go more and more into the “independent” mode. Both established parties have lost their principles and their focus on doing the people’s business.  One party has become about exclusion with the other wants to appease EVERYONE.  Neither of these new stands are appealing to me. So, what is the answer? I think it just might be a new group made up of moderates from both parties.

2017-10-29_09-50-31.pngIt’s a shame that good Senators like Senator Flake, and Senator Corker were driven from their party due to its swing to the  hateful isolationist exclusion mode.  The Republican base has moved so far to the right to deny them another term so the answer might just be to look for a more moderate base. That seems to be the current Centrist Project.

I have been following this group for almost year now and have contributed to their efforts.  We as a country need desperately to move beyond the extreme partisan politics of today.  We need to be driven by principled agendas that keep the focus on what is beneficial to the whole country.  I would love to find a party that contain branches of  both social liberalism and fiscal conservatism but not totally focused on either.

Click on the graphic above to see what The Centrist Project are about. You just might find them to be at least a partial solution to the problems of the country.  It is likely that the Centrist movement if it is successful will replace one of the political parties and to me it is uncertain which that will be. But something has to change or we just might not otherwise survive.  When your party abandons its core principles it is time for you to abandon your party.

Why are so many women low esteem masochists?

Be forewarned that I am putting on my satirical hat for this post so don’t take it too serious even if it does ring of truth.

The title of this post may shock some of my readers but that is what my Aspie side sometimes thinks when I sees some women. It just looks to me that too many 21st century women will go through whatever present and future pain is necessary to make themselves into what others expect.

2017-10-23_20-07-28.pngI know I have this maybe abnormal fixation on this topic but for the life of me I can’t understand why women continue to wear high heels, especially the seven inch variety that are now popular. I see so many women on TV that struggle to walk on their tip toes because the fashion authorities, whoever they are, tell them this is the latest style and of course they want to be stylish.

IMG_0394.jpgChanging subjects slightly I will let you in on a dirty dark secret. I am a mall walker. I spend most Thursday afternoons in a local mall briskly walking me two miles each week. One of the unofficial surveys I take during these walks is to count the number of women who are wearing heels higher than one inch.  I won’t keep you in suspense so I will tell you it is seldom more than three or so out of perhaps 200+ women I encounter. I like to say that the only people I see wearing high heels at the mall are the ones with half a brain as shown this picture I snapped there recently.

If high heels are so loved then why don’t women wear them all the time? I think this and other similar trends have something to do with peer pressure. Peer pressure is a powerful thing or at least I am told. I’m not sure if I personally ever felt a powerful need to do something simply because others were doing it but that is another post story I guess.

Closing out this post, I want to say I certainly support the idea that women are underrepresented when it come to middle and higher income level jobs. But I think part of the reason for that underrepresentation is they rightly or wrongly are seen as sheep instead of leaders. Or maybe it is because they are perceived as afraid to stand on their own and take off their high heels and all the paint they wear and show the world just who they really are. Now before you start piling on, I know there are men in these same straights. Maybe it is not high heel and makeup but something else for them.

The belief that a woman’s intelligence is inversely proportional to the height of her heels and the depth of her makeup maybe has something to do with them not always being taken seriously in the world.

The Forces That Bind Us Together..

One thing about America is that we have always had some hidden forces that bind us as citizens together. Something that we all agree on that makes us what we are as a country.  Are those forces being torn apart during these time? That is the question for this post.

Total bipartisanship is a myth especially in our country.  From the very beginning we have had a government made up of opposing forces. Adams totally disagreed with Jefferson and what he stood for. But there was something that even these advocates came together in compromise.  There were things that held the fabric of our nation together.

Almost a hundred years after Jefferson and Adams came our Civil War where we killed each other by the millions.  The South was threatened by the almost certain elimination of slavery.  They knew that their way of life would radically change if they were not allowed to own the human beings who did the work for them.   That separation between the North and the South is still there in one respect or another today. Bad feelings on both sides I guess.

We have always had our differences of opinion in the US but the fabric of our nation was never torn beyond repair. Many today think that this tear might just be irrevocable. They see our nation torn between a population who believes in a survival of the fittest mentality and another who think we should all be there for each other in times of need.  Ironically it is so-called Christian Evangelicals who don’t seem to care for anyone but themselves while their opponents take the mantle of “everyone is in this together” or should I say “brother’s keeper” mentality.  Given my knowledge of the teachings of Jesus this  dichotomy totally confounds me.

Those of us who are in the opposite camp of our current president started out being shocked by his actions. But since those actions occur almost daily now that shock has  changed to just alarm. Many see the end our our country as it has been and maybe even the end of civilization in the coming years.  I personally try to take a more historical perspective on these times and imagine like the past we will get through them to see a brighter horizon.

It is certainly the right of our citizens to elect bad presidents, even very bad ones. That is what a democracy is all about. But if the social fabric of our country is severely torn  as a result then our very existence is threatened. But just because we have been to the edge and back a few times doesn’t guarantee the same result this time around.

Science Is Not The Enemy Of The Church..

Being an engineer I consider myself a scientist and I can tell you first-hand that I felt very much attacked whenever I brought up science in my weekly bible classes. In that church the word “scientist” and “liberal” seemed to have an equally negative bias and I was both! I could never understand why so many were threatened when I asked questions based on scientific knowledge. If I did that it seemed I was immediately labeled a heretic. I found out my feeling were by no means unique. Here are some words about that from a book called Saving Jesus From The Church by Robin Meyers.

2017-10-23_15-37-24.pngIt is not the case that faith is more pure when it is uninformed or when it turns away from critical thinking and sound reasoning as threats to the life of the spirit. Science is not the enemy of faith, but rather its handmaiden. More threatening to the future of faith is the fear of what can be known as well as the search to know more. In fact, the ongoing suspicion that scientific discoveries or rigorous biblical scholarship will undermine faith is a tacit admission that faith is threatened by knowledge, because it is ultimately constructed on weak or faulty assumptions and, like the proverbial house of cards, needs to be “protected” from collapsing.

I am a strong believer that scientific knowledge is a gift from God. He gives it to us as we are ready to receive it. The Gnome project is an example. Many in the church today see science as an enemy of religion. One of the main reasons for that it is a threat to those who want to take the Bible literally and claim that the earth is a mere six thousand years old.  They maintain this position by counting back from Jesus to Adam and Eve. They believe that every generation has been accounted for in the Bible. When they see the overwhelming evidence that the earth is at least millions of years old they counter with “well, that is just God trying to trick us”. Why would God even bother to do that?

One book that I admire in this area is by Francis Collins entitled: The Language of God. It provides the best argument for the integration of faith and logic since C.S. Lewis’s Mere Christianity . Here are some of the words about this book on Amazon.  I highly recommend it to anyone willing to possibly admit that science is not the enemy of faith.One of the great divides in the church could be overcome if we got one thing straight: the truth of which Jesus speaks is wisdom incarnate, not intellectual assent to cogent arguments made on behalf of God. …

It has long been believed that science and faith cannot mingle. Faith rejects the rational, while science restricts us to a life with no meaning beyond the physical. It is an irreconcilable war between two polar-opposite ways of thinking and living. Written for believers, agnostics, and atheists alike, The Language of God provides a testament to the power of faith in the midst of suffering without faltering from its logical stride. Readers will be inspired by Collin’s personal story of struggling with doubt, as well as the many revelations of the wonder of God’s creation that will forever shape the way they view the world around them.

Writing is Recursive

canstockphoto25159365.jpgOften times in my life I feel like I am going in circles.  The same things seems to always crop up to mess things up.  I didn’t get married until I was forty so I had my share of dates.  But on second thought I really didn’t.  I knew I was not very good at it so I didn’t even attempt that often. Except for a very few occasions I just never could get past the second date.  With those kinds of experiences in life I knew I was different from many around me.

I would also later learn that I was just not very good at first thoughts and casual conversations. What came out of my mouth was often alarmingly blunt to many around me.  There were some that were brave enough to tell me so.  I didn’t have a clue until that happened. I said what I thought and I imagined everyone did that!

It may sound like I have the wrong title for this post but stay with me as I am coming to that point.  Many times after failed dates I would lie in bed going over our conversations in my head. I would often come to the conclusion that if I would have said this or that differently things might have gone better.  I would lie awake and keep trying to find that one sentence that, if I would have said it better, things might have worked out.

It just didn’t dawn on me at that age that I was not much of a extemporaneous speaker or conversationalist but I did know that I was a pretty good writer.  I always got an “A” in all my composition type classes in high school and college. What was the difference? Of course it was that writing is by nature a recursive task. Few writers can ever get it right the first time.  We constantly rewrite. Writing is recursive, at least good writing is recursive. I would finally discover that my sometimes strange characteristics were made for writing.

My Aspie characteristics make me a pretty poor speaker but a good writer and in the end I don’t mind that at all…