Sometimes I think that my bouts of depression are only a recent things. But I came across an entry from 9 years ago today in my personal journal and it got me to thinking:

Depression Setting In

My depression seems to be setting in again even without knowing more about Yvonne’s (my departed wife) Aneurysm. I just can’t seem to wrap my mind around the fact that it is ok to not have a purpose in life and to instead just live day-to-day.  When I do that it just seems that I am wasting the time that God has given me on this earth.  Gotta somehow get over these feelings!

We go to the specialist today to see about Yvonne’s condition and whether it will require surgery.  I don’t want to even think about that until after we know.

This could have been yesterday instead of nine years ago. I am once again questioning my purpose in life. My days of having the ear of a person in the upper echelons of a corporation nearly 25 years ago, are long gone. Of course, in the last nine years, I have also come to realize that most people think almost anyone who is older than 70 just don’t have any significant contributions to make in today’s world. To some degree that is true, but I do think that we, through our life experiences, can help others not make the same mistakes we did. When I was in my 30s and 40s I could have used some help with answers to my life’s purpose. But, like most others that age, I didn’t think to look to my elders.

I know that many of the folks who visit me here at RJsCorner are elders like me. But, there is also a significant amount who are much younger. I hope I am giving some of them some useful info on their journey in life.

Getting back to the original query of my purpose in life, I think the answer to that changes throughout a person’s life. Each stage of life presents its own purpose. It is just a matter of finding it. But, that is always easier said than done, isn’t it?