Earlier this year I got a small calendar from a small Amish store that I frequent a few times a year. I just love their pickled asparagus and other things. I usually say no when these things are offered, but for some reason I took this one, and I’m glad I did. Monthly they have a picture with a quote below it that seems to be talking to me.
My regular readers know that I have been struggling with what the rest of my life is going to be. My wife’s death, almost a year ago, turned my world upside-down. I am on my own now for the first time in almost 40 years. She did more for me than I ever, regrettably, thanked her for.
Part of my recent On-The-Road trip was to see if there might be a change of location. I looked at six retirement communities in the South and Southwest to see if I might want to move there. There was one of the six I visited that appealed to me, but since it has a three-year waiting list…
When I glanced at my little calendar, as shown above, it kinda reminded me that my happiness is not so much influenced by where I live. As usual, I had pretty much overthought the relocation idea. But now, with care and great tack I realize the life’s a great balancing act. Where I live is just a small part of that. I have to also consider things that are just as important, or maybe more so, to me.
I have resolved to stay here in the Midwest and most likely in the small college town where I presently reside. It has everything I need or could want. Although it has not happened much in my life, I have been dreaming of finding a place where I am an accepted and welcomed part of a group. Or, as the theme song from the TV show Cheers says: Where everybody knows my name, and are always glad I came. Looking at life as a balancing act I now realize that will never likely happen. I accept that, according to statistics, I am a one-in-three million person. Being a deaf Aspie pretty much excludes me from typical group membership. I just need to accept that and move on. I will always be “the odd man looking in”.
Blogging has been an important part of my life for almost fourteen years now. I know my view counts compared to others are pretty small, but I kinda feel that it is “my group” who accepts me for who I am, or at least what I write about. Blogging is just an essential part of who I am now. As the years have gone by it has especially lately become more inward-looking. I need that, and from some of your comments, I know you also learn a thing or two that might apply to your life. If nothing else, I hope that my posts are at least entertaining 🥸
Life is a great balancing act