I speak truth, not so much as I would, but as much as I dare; and I dare a little more as I grow older. (Catherine Drinker Bowen)
I got the above quote from a fellow blogger a few months ago. I don’t remember exactly who is was but the quote hit me head on. As I grow older I seem to dare and say some things that I would not have said earlier in life. When we are younger we think we speak the truth but we always hold off some things as we don’t want others to know just how “weird” we are. As we get older that inhibition subsides somewhat. At least in some of us. That is evidently where I am now. At this point in my life I am not trying to impress others with my knowledge so much as just asking the questions I might have otherwise held back.
This gets me in trouble once in a while. Like when I said the truth that I truly believe the earth is more than six thousand years old. My previous church clergyman took that statement as proof that I didn’t think the right things as far as his Christian denomination was concerned. I was indirectly told I should be looking elsewhere for another church home. In the long run I am glad that I dared a little more as I grew older. Even in this case. 🙂
In most other cases the consequences of my recently more daring words were have not be quite as drastic. I don’t have a job that I can be fired from for saying the “wrong” thing so there is no reason to hold back for that. I am certainly not trying to find employment anymore so I am not afraid a future boss will check on my Facebook page or my many blogs as for reasons not to hire me. In many ways growing old has its detriments but being able to say what you think is definitely not one of them.
I don’t hold back much anymore because I am afraid of how my words will be taken. But I do try to be sensitive to others feelings and try not to be like many of those other “nasty” bloggers who trash everything and have nothing good to say about anything.
And the journey goes on….