I came across an article over at the Medium a while back that kinda struck a nerve. The title was as above. Yeah, I do kinda think that I am meaner than I used to be. It’s just that I have always lived with the idea that as time goes by we, as a society should constantly improve. Quite frankly, it pisses me off what has happened to our country in the last twenty years. We seem to have moved 60 years backwards in that period of time. Maybe I am mean because I am so disappointed in humanity!
But then again the author gave three reasons why some old people are mean that kinda struck home with me.
They were mean young people.
Some people are just mean all their lives. They just never figured out how to be pleasant. They think they were owed a good life that for whatever reason was denied them. It doesn’t matter that they did nothing to make that happen. Some people just don’t change.
They are sick
Being in a retirement community I see a lot of sick old people. The number of maladies in this building are beyond thought. But, I got to admit that most of the folks are much more pleasant than I would be if I were them. Maybe, I am just a future mean old person? 🥸
They are afraid
There are plenty of reasons why old people are afraid. My cognitive skills are declining along with my deteriorating body. That becomes more obvious to me as each day passes. I can’t seem to put things down and five minutes later remember where they are. I can’t tell you how many times I have reheated a cup of coffee in the microwave and then discovered it hours later when I finally opened the door again.
They say that technology doubles every four years. When I left the corporate world twenty-some years ago I was tech-savvy. I try to keep up, but that is almost becoming a futile venture now. Everything is changing, and every day it is harder to keep up.
Maybe I’m afraid of dying but also afraid of living. I make the best of it, but on some days when I really want the world to just be the one I remember and understand, I get cranky and mean when I realize that will never happen.
I know I have reasons to be cranky and mean, but for the most part, I am neither of those things, or at least I keep them to myself. I put on a smile every day and try to enjoy life. Some call that masking and tell me that I don’t have to pretend, but sometimes pretending is the best thing I can do. Being cranky and mean all the time is no way to live your life, so if you are like that then just STOP it. 😖