This post is part of my continuing study of the Autism spectrum and particularly Asperger’s Syndrome.
I am stuck between two worlds in my life. I am a deaf man who lives almost exclusively in the hearing world but neither the hearing world or the deaf world considers me a homeboy. I am seldom around other deaf people so I can’t speak for them but since almost 80% of us deafies are like me in that they went deaf later in life ways maybe I do. One of my goals via this blog and a few other forums, is to help the hearing world understand that most of us who are deaf are really not much different from them.
In regards to Aspergers I am via this post going to give you a glimpse of the last chapter into my study . I have taken a couple of standard tests and discovered that I am about equally spread between the Neurotypical world and the Neurodiverse world. Those two words were new to me so I assume they are to you. Simply put I have rather strong Aspergers’ characterisitcs in some areas but not others. I will be going into that in somewhat detail in future posts.
Its hard being stuck between two worlds but I am used to it. My living with Asperger’s traits didn’t change just because it now has a name. As with my deafness, I have lived with it most of my life. But in some ways just having a name makes the struggle a little easier as I now know I am not alone. At the same time I don’t want that to reduce my feeling of personal responsibility of trying harder to be aware when I hurt people’s feelings or give them a view of me that I don’t have of myself or any of a number of other social behaviors. I need to do better more than ever now that I know I have a problem…. much more on that later.
Before I close out this post I want to make it clear that while I say I have identified personal characteristics that relate to Aspergers I am likely not typical of this overall group. I fully understand that there are many who struggle much more than I do. In my limited studies I have not been able to find how spread out of severity levels are in the Aspergers population. I don’t pretend to know what others with extreme conditions go through in their daily lives. All I can do for this series of posts is to give you my story and hope it relates to others with Aspergers at some level.
Next time I will start giving you some of my real life examples of Aspergers traits. I hope they help you but just as importantly I hope they help me too….